Were you ever hit with such vision that it's never possible to finish a task with satisfaction if you can't find yourself happy doing it in the first place, or getting involved in this task because you thought it's what's gonna make you feel happy and cure your longing when just right in the middle of it you get sick and wished you never opted for such crap afterall, eventually making you feel worthless with this mere anticipation that you can't even fuckin figure out what you really want, when you happen to suck over and over again because you can't squeeze out lessons from what you patterned yourself to do everyday, when effectiveness is never at hand because you dwell in such routinary principle even if it fails you each and everytime you turn to it for defense...?
I was... oh... I still am... and I guess I'll still be hit tomorrow and the day after that til I get to put it all together and spell what it is that I absolutely crave for in this so-called-life of mine.
answers, answers, answers... i freakin' need it now!
Thursday, July 17, 2008
I HEAR CONFUSION..
CLICK
I'm at this point in my so-called "life" where I'm having trouble defining exactly where I want to end up. Redefining the word fun means getting it off my system, and if fun means trying out new things and meeting new people, then I'm drowned in deep mess.
However, things are starting to fall back into places for me. I know I'll be getting back on track soon but until then, I'll still be needing that pat on the back which signals me to move on and follow that which is proper.
I should now start loving myself first before loving anyone else.
.jpg)
Sunday, June 22, 2008
silent love
Can love be the language for a person who cannot speak?
A sweet story about how love overcomes everything ultimately.
From the very Beginning, the girl's family objected strongly on her dating this guy. Saying that it has got to do with family background & that the girl will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she were to be with him.
Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrel very often. Though the girl love the guy deeply, but she always ask him: "How deep is your love for me?"
As the guy is not good with his words, this often cause the girl to be very upset. With that & the family's pressure, the girl often vent her anger on him. As for him, he only endure it in silence.
After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated & decided to further his studies in overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the girl: "I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?"
The girl agreed, & with the guy's determination, the family finally gave in & agreed to let them get married. So before he leave, they got engaged.
The girl went out to the working society, whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies. They sent their love through emails & phone calls. Though it's hard, but both never thought of giving up.
One day, while the girl was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realised that she was badly injured. Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. She has lost her voice......
The doctors says that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down.
During the stay in hospital, besides silence cry,.....it's still just silence cry that companies her. Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the ringing tone of the phone. Which pierced into her heart every time it rang. She does not wish to let the guy know. & not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer.
With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, the guy sent millions & millions of reply, and countless of phone calls,.. all the girl could do, besides crying, is still crying....
The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & be happy.
With a new environment, the girl learn sign language & started a new life. Telling herself everyday that she must forget the guy. One day, her friend came & told her that he's back. She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him.
A year has passed & her friend came with an envelope, containing an invitation card for the guy's wedding. The girl was shattered. When she open the letter, she saw her name in it instead.
When she was about to ask her friend what's going on, she saw the guy standing in front of her. He used sign language telling her "I've spent a year's time to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You. With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger. The girl finally smiled.
Thursday, June 19, 2008
LOVE IS BLIND
There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she was blind.
She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her.
She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.
One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she could see everything, including her boyfriend.
Her boyfriend asked her, "now that you can see the world, will you marry me?"
The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend was blind too, and refused to marry him.
Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying.....
"Just take care of my eyes dear." i'll always love you forever..
